Uncertainty.

I don't know what I've become.. or what I will be.. I feel.. detached somehow. Desensitised. I don't know who I am anymore. I've changed so much, does anything of the old me still remain? Where is the boy who once asked 'why' incesantly during primary, whos curiosity was beyond others? Where was the weird kid who thought up weird ideas all the time? Where is the boy.. who was loyal to her? Her and only her?

*Sigh*

I have changed so much these 4 years.. every year another step. I'm no longer that naive, inquisitive boy anymore, but.. what have I traded it for?

I've been remembering her face in guilt. I still can't believe I made her cry. Even as I'm DotAing or CSing, I can't help but feel a pang of guilt. I haven't even smsed her yet. I haven't said an apology yet. Friends urged. Reasoned. Tried to help. But I said, I was shy. I said, I didn't have the courage to apologize. Said I'd sms her when I got back home.

....

And I still haven't done it. I care about her.. I really do. But.. what will she say? How will she react? I.. don't know.

All I can say is..

Forgive me. I was too rash.

To another friend..
Thank you for helping me to realize what it means to be a leader.

Revan is still uncertain.

The Italian man who went to Malta o.o

I'm going back to Italia, you son of a beach! =P

4E's dissection :O

Not fair! They dissected first!

The 4E dissectors/torturers/rodent murderers/wadever you wanna call 'em @.@

Left is Joseph, while right is Brenda.

Are you prepared to die, oh white rat? o.o!!!

I suppose it found life too cruel =/
Look! Entrails! Viscera! *Screams like a sakai*


The hamster that 4E wanted to kill but Avril bought from Joseph, which Brenda then wanted but decided she couldn't keep it, which Avril also couldn't keep before asking her mother, and which was about to be thrown into the dustbin before being saved by Chills :O

P.S: It's MIA somewhere in Chills's house now o.o

That's one large frog o.o

A boring post about a boring day =D

I:

Went to Kevin Wong's house, only to find him going to Chills's house :O

Followed him to Chills's house, and ended up frightening Leaf o.o

Talked with Kevin about Bleach =D.

Introed him to Anna, Brenda and Jocelyn (Brenda if you ever read this, PLEASE LA stop bringing around Jerk Haw on your bag =.=)

Lingered at Kevin's house and left around 5.40.

Walked back home (Stupid rear tyre la, hai si lang kai mlm)

Went into a fitful slumber after dinner :O

Woke up and used the comp.

Blogged a lame post.

Am preparing to sleep now.

Revan is still active. And bored.