Monday, April 27, 2009

What online tests think of me :o

1. Optimism/Pessimism Test - 63/100:

Was rated a.. cynic.

According to your responses, your perspective of humankind is rather cynical. You often assume the worst of people, and will usually distrust their motives. Instead of giving others the benefit of the doubt and accept what they say or do at face value, you take a much more self-protective stance. Unless proven otherwise, you generally refuse to believe in other people’s good intentions and more often than not, will withhold your trust. Although this perspective may protect you from being taken advantage of, you could definitely benefit from being a little more trusting. Your belief that many people are fundamentally bad can lead to a rather pessimistic outlook, that is, if you don’t already have one. Unlike their less positive counterparts, optimists will at least try to find the good in even the most difficult of people, and are much more willing to place their faith in others. Although this doesn’t mean that you should trust the good intentions of everyone you meet, a leap of faith every once in a while couldn’t hurt.

2. Emotional Intelligence:

According to your self-report answers, your emotional intelligence is very poor. People who score like you do feel that they have trouble dealing with their own emotions and those of others. They struggle to overcome difficulties in their lives and they are unable to control their moods. It’s hard for them to understand how best to motivate themselves and reach their goals. In addition, they find social interactions quite difficult, for several reasons. They may have trouble allowing themselves to get close with others, finding it difficult to be vulnerable enough to establish intimacy. They also report having trouble offering support to others, likely due to the fact that they do not understand where others are coming from or they lack ideas about how best to help. Perhaps by working on your problem areas, you can become more confident in dealing with your own emotions and those of others.

3. Belief test - 75/100:

According to your score, you believe that some people are gifted with the power to see into the future and can predict things to come. Although you may not consider all psychics to be legitimate practitioners, you do believe that there are some who do indeed possess a sort of “sixth sense” or the ability to feel and see things that most people can’t.

4. Jealousy test - 23/100:

According to your score, you seem to be doing the right thing in most jealousy-inducing situations, but there are a few occasions when your reactions may be a little more blatant. For the most part however, you seem to be able to monitor your behavior and rarely let it get out of hand. From the viewpoint of a partner, jealousy is generally very unbecoming, but the good news is that it can be controlled. This is best achieved by addressing any underlying issues you may have that can trigger your jealousy. If, on the other hand, it’s your partner who thrives on jealousy – and perhaps even goes out of her way to instigate it - then it is a pretty safe guess that she has an issue that needs to be addressed, as it could really sour your relationship.

Wanna go at 'em?
Here :O

Monday, April 20, 2009

HEAR THIS! =D




Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt
You think I don't know you're out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so,
You already know I'm not attached to material

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love..

Ciara:
Yeah
What did I do but give love to you
I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet, all that's not me
Go 'head, keep the keys, that's not what I need from you
You think that you know (I do), you've made yourself cold (Oh yeah)
How could you believe them over me, I'm your girl
You're out of control (So what?), how could you let go (Oh yeah)
Don't you know I'm not attached to material

Both:
I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

Enrique:
So all this love I give you, take it away, (Unh, uh huh)
Ciara:
You think material's the reason I came, (Unh, uh huh)
Enrique:
If I had nothing would you want me to stay (Unh, uh huh)
Ciara:
You keep your money, take it all away

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

Ooh, my love
Ooh, my love

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

=.=


Stupid wire.

Stupid eyes.

And a stupid Chem test this Friday I'm going to fail.

And I have to stay back after that 'till 1.

=.=!

mlm!

'Nuff said.


Friday, April 10, 2009

Goodbye is the final answer, I guess.


This is how I feel now.





Now, when she's about to leave, I feel.. something I never have felt before.

My head tells me to be happy for her. After all, she's going somewhere new, no? It would be.. good for her.

And yet..

My heart tells me I don't want her to leave.

I want her to stay. I wish everything could stay the same.

But thinking so is naive and immature. After all, what could it do?

If she ever sees this, I suppose this is all I have to say to her:

When I first saw you, I thought you were the most beautiful girl I had ever seen in my life. That was 2 years ago, when I first became infatuated with you. You were perfect - clever as well as beautiful. To me, you were the girl of my dreams. Perhaps now, you can understand why I fell for you, despite the fact you were older. I suppose it is true - love is blind. I doubt I ever will find someone like you again. But rest assured, I stopped chasing you long ago, and I will not continue now.. it is too late for that. I have my life, and you yours. As we part ways, these are my final words to you, unless we should meet again: Farewell, old friend, and may joy and bliss follow you wherever you go. I will never forget you.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

How can I not be depressed?

The following takes place between 9.25 p.m and 9.30 p.m on a ordinary Tuesday night:

Shirley / Watermelon: Andrew, don't be sad!
Me: *Thinks: The fuck? How did they know I was depressed?*
Me: Huh?
Amelia: Why're you sad?
Me: I thought you knew.

*Car comes seconds after that*

As for any readers wondering about my depression, I got a sickening, heart breaking, practically impossible result with the number 74 stamped/branded/tattooed/forged into it.

Although most of you would think, "74's ok lei, what's wrong with it?" the pain of it lies in that damn fucking subject's name.

ENGLISH.


I repeat yet again:

ENGLISH.

The one and only subject I CANNOT get less then 80 in! MCB la. All those English illiterates in 4A are bound to be laughing at me now. Mahai, summore I'm not the highest. No, the honour goes to Anna! At times like these, I am damned tempted to scream out these words:

WHATTHEBLOODYFUCKHAPPENED?!
HOWINALLTHE
FUCKINGHELLSEVER
SPAWNEDDID
IGET74?!
MCBKNNPBK!!!
t(-.-t)!!!

Anyway..
When you're practically only good in one thing, and when something like this happens, you get

D-I-S-I-L-L-U-S-I-O-N-E-D.

Not to mention the others making fun of me now. I'll admit, I was bragging about it, but this.. this is PAINFUL enough! Before this, everyone at least respected my expertise in English, now?
They think I'm a no-good, lazy bones who doesn't deserve to be in 4A! Just because they got As!

Just great. What a fucking fine day for me. And Amelia doesn't even know head nor tail of it. Just goes to show that practically none of my classmates have ever, nor ever will understand me.

No matter. In 2 months' time..

I will come back and retake my throne.