I'll miss you.. but it's time to say goodbye.

I have no idea what to say.. neither do I know what to do. All I know is.. the person I love.. loved.. is gone. And now, as I 'compose' my 1st post, all I feel is emptiness.. pain.. deep within. Although I try lying to myself, to tell myself I don't miss her, that I'm happy she's gone forever.. the pain still remains. Ever since hearing from her closest friend that she does has a bf, I died inside. All emotion bled out from me, as if from an open wound. Ever since, I've been hearing songs, desperately trying to numb myself. ***, u asked me before, whether I entered this state after you told me. My answer is, although I deny it, yes. However, 'tis not her fault, but mine. And after all this time spent grieving for the death of an illusion, perhaps it's time to let go. If there was anything I could've changed.. it would be telling her. But there is no such thing as a second choice. And although I'll always be there for her, for now, it's time to say goodbye.