If there ever was a nihilistic song, this would be it.

Firstly.. wad is nihilism? O.o

Nihilism (from the Latin nihil, meaning nothing) is a philosophical position that argues that existence is without objective meaning, purpose, or intrinsic value. Nihilists generally assert that objective morality does not exist, and that no action is logically preferable to any other in regard to the moral value of one action over another. Nihilists that argue that there is no objective morality may claim that existence has no intrinsic higher meaning or goal. They may also claim that there is no reasonable proof or argument for the existence of a higher ruler or creator, or posit that even if higher rulers or creators exist, humanity has no moral obligation to worship them.

This is wad it means. Kinda sounds like me. *Shrugs* Who cares anyway. Here's the song:

Until The End
Breaking Benjamin
Phobia

I will go on until the end!!! =D

I. Am. Not. Attracted. To. You. PERIOD.

Oh mi gosh.. so damn soon? No! I promised! No more crushes as long as I'm in school! I. Will. Not. Have. A. New. Crush. End of story. I don't wanna talk about her anymore.

*Turns on MP4 and drowns in 3DG*

*Starts thinking abt her*

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

I am not gonna dream and drool about you. End of story.

*Glares*

*Sighs*

Whyyy me??

Wrath.. of the Lich King.

The newest expansion of WoW, Wrath of the Lich King, or WotLK, is to be released soon. Being the 2nd expansion after WoW: The Burning Crusade, it introduces a new hero class available to those of lvl 50 and above in the game: Death Knights. Although I don't play this game, the cinematic trailer released so far, puts what I've seen of previous cinematics to shame. Damn, that movie released in 2009 better be good. Bah, I've talked too much. Here's the cinematic trailer:


Wrath of the Lich King - Cinematic Intro (HD)

Yeah, I know, kns quality. As for a high resolution one, here's the link.

"In the end, all must serve the one.. true.. king."
Arthas, Lord of the Dead, WoW trailer

Tag of Weirdness @.@

I've been tagged by Angeline. The rules are:

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1. Each player of this tag starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.

2. People who get tagged need to write a blog post of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
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1. My friends love pop and R&B, but I prefer alternative rock, alternative metal and post-grunge. Not to mention gothic metal. Yes I know, I'm a potential serial killer. =.=

2. I know a lot about *ahem* and how to do it. Seriously. 3 holes you can *toot* ar XD. And NO, I do not watch porn.

3. I know alot about Warcraft history, yet have little skill in DotA. Haizzz.

4. I have a fascination for European languages, especially Italian. Dio mio!

5. People at school say that Gloria and I look alike. O.o

6. I do not wish to have kids when I grow up. And no having a wife. No, not even a girlfriend. BACHELORHOOD!

7. I'm silent at home, talktative and boisterous at school. *Sigh*

8. Though I suck in everything, including Math, my English is the exception. Somehow because of my former school which I detest and resent.. I've become a maestro in English. Talk about irony.

9. I am an atheist. Run Christians, run! -Takes out bazooka-

10. I love the cello. Or as Chills puts it, I love 'things.'

11. I named my blog after a single by Evanescence.

12. I love my school, despite outwardly showing that I hate it. I just detest the admins, especially that FYK. Fie on her!

13. I would love nothing more than to contemplate my life silently in the midst of heavy rain. No music is better than the melancholy of rain. *Sighh*

14. I can be pretty obsessive. Don't ask me wad, it's embarassin'.

15. Clumsy. Worse then bein' obsessive. Grr.

As for who I tag.. hmm.
Haiya, only got you guys liao..
1. Kelvin
2. May
3. Charmander (Yes, I know she's inactive, but then, no one else liao ma =.=)

For now, sayonara!

End of F3.. haiz.

As I sit here, blogging, I feel the sadness of possibly having to say goodbye to the friends who made life so much easier to bear. As this year draws to a close, I feel somewhat more reluctant to see the days, slowly slipping by. Soon, Jeff, Chills.. they all may be put in different classes.. and I.. perhaps in the Art stream. I must admit, I am no longer the same innocent boy in Primary 6. That boy is dead, consumed by what I am now. The naivety, changed into brooding darkness. The joy of youth, consumed by a bitter sadness within. In these 3 years, I have changed alot.. thanks to Jeff n Chills. Yet, with only a couple of weeks left, I can't help thinking, this is the beginning of the end.. of our friendship. They mean so much to me.. I don't wanna see them fading away in the whispers of time. If only, if only.. we could all be friends forever. After this year's F5 leaves, it will be the last year for Charmaine n Glo. After they leave, I have one year. One year of loneliness, melancholy and silent brooding. Some may ask, "Do you not have the three of them? They are the same age as you, if you recall." The same age they may be, yet slip away they will. I experienced this with 3E b4.. and I don't want to experience it again.

But.. I doubt there is any hope left. Chills wishes to pursue computer programming, if I'm not mistaken. He might go, or stay if he's unlucky. Jeff n Soon will stay, but when F5 is over? Will we still be friends? Despite this, I will forever remember the two years we had in the same class, for although they bring me much pain to remember at the very end, those memories make me smile, unlike anything else could.
And thus, at the very end of the journey for the 4 of us, I thank you all for making life happier in my eyes. Soon, thanks for being with me 9 years. I hope there will be a 10th, but I doubt it. I'll miss having ur presence in class =)
Jeff, thanks for lending me ur Harry Potter books and introing me to several friends. At least I was happy =)
And for the last one, Chills..
Thanks for showing me DotA. Thanks for helping me grow up from an immature kid into a more matured fellow. Thanks for you n Jeff teaching me how to cycle =)
And lastly..
THANKS FOR BEING A FRIEND IN NEED!
GLI AMICI PER SEMPRE!

Yet, in the end..

"I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone,
But though you're still with me,
I've been alone all along.."

Silent sadness..

I wish I didn't hafta go to school. Haiz. Whenever I go to sch and see her, I feel GUILT. I feel AGONY. PAIN. Guilt out of not being able to forget her, like I said I had. Agony, out of loving her and not being able let it all out. Pain.. because she's going soon. The time I have to see her slips away, ever so slowly.. I feel depressed. Torn in two. I want to see her before she leaves, but at the same time, I wish I didn't have to. I wish I never fell in love with her.
-Sigh-
When she goes, loneliness will follow soon. All too soon. Time passes with great haste. If only I could run away, drown my sorrow in the deep places of the world, or perhaps shatter it on the peaks of the world. If there was anything I learned during this year, it would have been this: Friendships, made in the youth of life, never last. No matter what you pledge, what you vow, no matter how strong the bonds are, time blows it all away. Yes Rene, that extends to YOU.
-Laughs bitterly-
I suppose, there is nothing I can do. It is what one would call.. inevitable. Maybe, one day, this sorrow, will come to pass. But not now. Not today. For now, the pain will remain emtombed within. Perhaps a day will come when I find someone who can shake me out of this melancholy.. but until that time comes..

"Deep within me,
Life’s crawling and wasting my days,
Another night gone and I know there will be another way,
I’m leading myself to be free,
In this eternal goodbye.. "

LOTR Insanity o.o

During PMR, when I just COULDN'T revise at all, I turned to LOTR. Yea, I did. And I read. Hmm. And I READ. Well enough to have some words from the Battle of the Pelennor Fields stuck in my mind. Yes, I know I'm outdated, LOTR became famous YEARS ago. =.=

Well, here are some quotes of that book:
The ride of the Rohirrim:
Arise, arise, Riders of Théoden!
Fell deeds awake, fire and slaughter!
spear shall be shaken, shield be splintered,
A sword-day, a red day, ere the sun rises!
Ride now, ride now! Ride to Gondor!

Éomer's shock and anger at seeing Éowyn:
"Éowyn, how come you here? What madness or devilry is this? Death, death, death! Death take us all! Ride, ride to ruin and the world's ending!

Éomer's despair at seeing the corsairs of Umbar:
Out of dark, out of doubt, to the day's rising,
I rode, singing in the sun, sword unsheathing.
To hope's end I rode, and to heart's breaking,
Now for wrath, now for ruin, and a red nightfall!

The Mouth of Sauron's folly:
Mouth of Sauron: And who is this? Isildur's heir? It takes more to make a king than a broken Elvish blade!
[Aragorn cuts off the head of the Mouth of Sauron]

Gimli: Guess that concludes negotiations.

Aragorn rallying the men of Rohan and Gondor:
Hold your ground, hold your ground! Sons of Gondor, of Rohan, my brothers! I see in your eyes the same fear that would take the heart of me. A day may come when the courage of men fails, when we forsake our friends and break all bonds of fellowship, but it is not this day. An hour of woes and shattered shields, when the age of men comes crashing down! But it is not this day! This day we fight! By all that you hold dear on this good Earth, I bid you, STAND, MEN OF THE WEST!

Gandalf's words just before Barad-dûr collapses:
"Stand and wait, Men of the West! For this is the hour of Doom."

Part of Samwise's song:
Though here at journey's end I lie
in darkness buried deep,
beyond all towers strong and high,
beyond all mountains steep,
above all shadows rides the Sun
and Stars for ever dwell:
I will not say the Day is done,
nor bid the Stars farewell.

-Yawns-
Revan is sleepy. Au revoir!

Pain is good. It had BETTER be. Il dolore è buono!

Damn! How can I skin my leg liddat? How the ****?! The back of my leg summore! WTBF? Must. Calm. Down. Revan. Is. Not. Joe. Kinnear. Revan. Does. Not. Cuss. Well, at least not as BAD as he DID. But how could I FALL like that? Ngai ti.. fly across the drain oso o.o. Il dolore è buono! El dolor es bueno! La douleur est bonne! Schmerz ist gut! 疼痛是好的! Ouch. -Stares at skinned leg-

P.S: Amy? Your faith, albeit in something I feel is baseless, will reward you with bliss one day, although what bliss, I cannot say. Revan. Must. Now. Go. Back. To. Downloading. Songs. On. Limmey. Buonanotte!

P.P.S : I am no linguist, just someone who had the sense to use an online translator.

-Sheepish grin while rotten eggs are being thrown around-

Gathering at Boulevard

Just a few days ago, students from SMKJA (as well as one from Batu Lintang) gathered together to celebrate the passing of an event everyone DETESTED: The horror of horrors (For a F3 anyway), PMR. Immediately after it, Brenda invited me, Chills n Jeff to go, Jeff turned it down, but Chills and I went. In order to avoid boring any readers, I shall relate the following events briefly:

1. We ate at Pizza Hut. No, not ate, DEVOURED. TORE APART. ANYTHING.
2. Me, Sin Cheng, Chills, Jerky n KJ went to Star World, but there wasn't 4 comps that could link together to play (I tagged along to see.)
3. Went back. Ate ice cream (A variety of flavours. Passion fruit, mango, green tea, dark choc, bla bla bla. And NO, I am NOT SICK. Paranoids.)
4. Melepak lepak for a while. Then we left. Well, at least the guys left.

And now for a 'photographic' view of the gathering:















From left to right, starting from 1st row:
Zhi Yi, Gid, Jocelyn, Jia Xin, Chills.

2nd row:
KJ, Boris, me, Amelia, Shirley, Siew Yung.

3rd row:
Jerky, Sin Cheng, Eunuch (I still wonder why did he come along, but let bygones be bygones..), Brenda, Vincent.

Another group photo:















Bottom row:
Zhi Yi, Xin Wei.

Mid row:
Jocelyn, Amelia, Boris, Jia Xin, Siew Yung.

Lower back row:
Jerky, me, Gid (The one crouching down with the blue shirt o.O), Helda, Shirley.

Upper back row:
Sin Cheng, Eugene, Suk Yi, Brenda, Vincent.

Time to dl songs. Ciao.

It's all OVER.

I used to be in love with someone. Now, the illusion has been dispelled, the dream gone. I used to think about her all the time. Now, whenever I do, I think of the time when I died inside. Of a past filled with delusions. Nowadays, only sleep brings peace from my tortured thoughts.. if only I could drown myself in negativity. Kelvin said, "Show her on what she's missed out". (Although he doesn't know who. If he did, I doubt he'd say that.) For now, I have to focus on the upcoming PMR.. I have to.. but it's all over for me. Forever. I can never have her.. Misery loves me.

Three Days Grace
It's All Over
One-X

Your bottle's almost empty (Yeah, lemme drink to 4get about her.)
You know this can't go on (Who cares? Not one will anyway.)
Because of you my mind is always racing (Racing into HELL, that is.)
The needle's breaking your skin (Gimme morphine. PLEASE.)
The scar is sinking in (Scar? It's still a fresh wound although it's been so long..)
And now your trip begins but (Trip to despair. Yeah. Enticing.)
It's all over for
It's all over for

You (Aye. For me. -Jumps into cold ocean beneath-)
For you
When you're on the edge and falling off (Halfway there!)
It's all over for you (It already is OVER.)
For you
When you're on the edge and falling off (Can't I just FALL INTO THE OCEAN? Please?)
It's all over

I know what runs through your blood (So do I. Morphine, beer, care to add?)
You do this all in vain (At least I'm doing something instead of crying abt her.)
Because of you my mind is always racing
And it gets under my skin (The pain's EVERYWHERE, not just under my skin.)
To see you giving in (I will never let her give in. I want her to be happy.)
And now your trip begins but (I walk alone.)
It's all over for
It's all over for

You
For you
When you're on the edge and falling off (When will I actually DROP?)
It's all over for you (Way past over.)
For you
When you're on the edge and falling off (Cb la, CAN'T I JUST DROP INSIDE?!)
It's all over

And now you're dead inside (Ever since I knew..)
Still you wonder why (I know why, but her face keeps popping up in my mind)
It's all over
And now you're dead inside (Dead, but I still wanna know who the guy is.)
Still you wonder why (I think of her every night.. -Sighs-)
It's all over

And now you're dead inside
Still you wonder why
When you're on the edge and falling off (Someone save me, please.)
It's all over for (You, for you)
And now you're dead inside (I want to live again.)
Still you wonder why
When you're on the edge and falling off (If only I fell for someone else..)
It's all over for (You, for you)
And now you're dead inside (My fault entirely, not hers. Never will be.)
Still you wonder why (I already know.)
It's all over (Yeah, all over. A life of misery and woe awaits me..)

War of the Eunuch

Eugene Eugene. You made my life much more worth living for a few more days. =P I'M NOT GAY, MIND. It was so damn ****ing boring without DotA, World Edit, which I can live without, BUT NO SONGS? -Faints- Anyway, lemme give u a quick summmary of the war (Since I don't hafta time to stay for much longer, parents are gonna wake up soon.. ARGH. I HATE BANS. AND WITHOUT A MOUSE TO HELP SUMMORE.)

Once upon a time.. Eugene and Glo were fighting. Out of grudge, Eugene created an imposter Glo profile, and proceeded to pretend being her insulting herself. However, the Eunuch, aptly named so, MISSED A CRITICAL FLAW. SHE CAN'T WRITE IN CHINESE SOHAI! And that was wad told everyone there was an imposter. And when I decided to accuse him openly, THE WAR STARTED. He then flamed us (Us being Glo and me at the time) in CHINESE. Ngai ti. He no brains isit? Anyone who could read Chinese would see that the way the imposter and Eunuch wrote their insults were practically the SAME. And by writing in Chinese at all, it highlighted him as the only eunuch/thing using Chinese to post at the time. As for his insults.. LOL. In one sentence, self-denigrating, hypocritic and sohai. =) Everything he flamed us with, we threw back tenfold. By this time, Churchill and Kelvin (Albeit not openly) were flaming him too. Damn, Churchill's bombs were.. fun. XD. The eunuch also had the audacity to simply accuse us of cowardice. Example of his hypocrisy: When challenged in English, he ignored me, whining, "I don't wanna make the whole arguement larger". All while flaming Churchill n Glo. If he had really wanted peace, he would've STFU-ed and ignored all of Churchill's insults. AHA! BUT HE DID NOT! Which equals to: He. Was. Scared. Of. Me. Beating. Him. Like. Porto. Were. Beaten. By. Arsey. (4-0 for those who duno, btw). Oh well, who told him to besong my gan jie? And insult my standards of English (Like his are any good anyway). I'm the English King of F3 in SMKJA after all.. don't say he wasn't warned.. =P however, after the 1st call for peace from his sis (who isn't anything like him), we had a ceasefire. Only for him to start flaming us AGAIN when we started to talk about something else and blaming it all on us not stopping. AND THUS, THE WAR BEGAN AGAIN. And this time, we flamed him (Or shud I say raped? It doesn't matter anyway =P) until he couldn't take it. And oh yea.. flamed us back (In capitals summore). He was so friggin' mad this time, his words all sounded sohai. That was his last insult however. His sis called for peace AGAIN (Although I still wanted to flame 'em). Had a bad day. -Sighs- I should've been there. Back to the topic anyway, after this last call, we relented and on the 111th post of the ARSS group in FS, the war was ended. (Despite a 112th post from JT = =).

Anyway, here's the reasons y we belived it was him:
1. He was the only guy that wrote in Chinese. Duh?
2. His style of writing was roughly the same to the imposter's. SOHAI.
3. If it wasn't true, why bother flaming us?
4. COMMON SENSE. -Rolls eyes- A grudgeful person who wants revenge will seek it, either physically or mentally.
5. We know his 'kuan' de. Easily jealous, talks crap, thick-headed and lies like a pro. Even had the nerve to said he hated us ever since he saw us (Us being me n Chills). As if we even liked him =). And his type of personality fits what I've said in 4.

I wonder, how will he face us on Monday though? -Grins sadistically while holding up meat cleaver- MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. -Laughter echos-

Hmm. I seemed to have developed a liking for the word denigrate. Lolz.